Im Weak

Normally im weak.......

u can easily make me scare.....

i can be very very scare even a small matter happening to me....

even if my friend angry me and dont want talk to me...i will be very scare....

my diary full with the scare words.... all about scare......

scare my friends hate me, scare to eat wrong foods, scare to lose friends, scare to new places and even scare to meet new friends....

u can also easily turn me into sad mood and cry face.....

i will be crying for non stop if someone can make me feel touch, give me a very shock surprise and even watch a sad movie...... all about crying words in my diary too.....

i have no idea why my behaviour is like that..... and i cant control for all these as well....

dont really believe that im strong enough in those appearance.... perhaps i might be worst than a girl.... i really do.... ^^

therefore, dont ever play with me too over.... or else i really cry in front of u.......

and dun ever scold me and hate me, dear my friends... i really scare to lose even single one of u...... i love u all sooo much and appreciate everyone of u....=) love u guys alwiz...=)

nite everyone..=)

i should sleep early today........

since tomorrow will be another hard day for me.....

a new challenge, a new mission......

hope everything will be fine.......

get ready everything and stay calm all the time......

no matter whats happening.....

always remember one words........

*****CONFIDENCE*****

Good Night My Lovely Friends......^^

Thanks and Appreciate It

Just received my exam result yesterday.... the result was unexpected... is out of my expectation....i really appreciate it so much.... i couldn't believe it..... and i'm totally satisfied with the result....here i would like to thank for the support from the God and all my friends..... i really appreciate this time.....

i never think to fight for the victory....

i never think to be perfect.......

i just want something that is normal and enough for me....

Human should be satisfied and appreciated what they have and what they gain....

never never request for more unless you are really deserved to get more from it......

Sometimes i feel that God is unfair for me..... maybe u have the same feeling like me....

But i think He has his own reason at behind..... or maybe is all about fate.....

we can still change the facts.... but we are not eligible to change our fate....we have to accept it.....

Sometimes people assumes that fate always related with luck...... this might be true also....

Good luck or bad luck is all about fate..... Am i right???

So now no matter what happen, i would still defense for myself to get what i deserved to get it..... i would not easily to be given up....maybe sometimes i will... haha...><

mmm maybe u guys think that i'm talking crap right now.... hahaha.... just hope that u agree with that....=)

And this time my post is the most informal type..... hope you guys don't mind....=)

Night everyone....=)

i want to give up...=(

i think the road i have taken right now is too far away......

i wish to stop and give up in the middle of the road......

and i wish to turn behind and walk back to my original direction.....

but i know i cant...... all i have to do is to walk in front without looking at behind.....

i wish that i can keep on walking on the road till the end.....

although i know that there is no ending for the road.....

but when i look to the front, the road fill with hopes and opportunities......

but when i keep on walking to the front, the road full with challenges and difficulties........

i cant hold and handle those situation by myself.......

i really feel tired of all these.....

i really wish someone can always be my side to keep on support me.....

to give me motivation and a sense of direction so that i can keep on moving.....

i just need a family, friends and lover who really understand me and support me.....

i don't care how people judge and comment about me.....

as long as i can get what i want and what i need.......

no matter how difficult the process and the progress......

i keep on telling myself not to be moody and emotional all the time....

but i cant control it by myself cause this is all about human behaviour.....

what i need is that someone who can really share my problems and sadness.....

and able to give me a better advice to handle those situation in the wise manner.....

all right i think this is enough to show and share my problems over here....

hope that i can handle it well and keep on walking in the right path.....

now plenty of problems in my list.....

so i'm just wish i can make it disappear one by one......

PRAY FOR MY SELF........ and GOOD NIGHT EVERYONE....=)

Never Afraid To Be Alone

There are many problems need to be solve in my life...............

But not all the problems I can solve by my self........

The sea in front of my view represent the problems that i need to be face in the future.......

But i never give up to face each of the problems......

And I will do what ever i can do as long as i never afraid to be alone......

One dog in the picture represent the person who always willing to help me, to guide me and to motivate me so that i can keep going on to chase for my dreams........

This dog can be my lover, my family members or even my best friends......

I really appreciate the person who able to share my pain and my story.......

If YOU are the one who give me everything that i mentioned here, then i would like to say Thank You and I Love You So Much.....><

The sunlight from the sun represent the light of the GOD who appear to show me the direction and my way to realize my dreams.......

Therefore, i never afraid to walk alone in the dark..........

With the light, i can find my way to walk in front and try to reach to the end of my path without fear.........

Now I'm sitting alone watching the flow of the sea..... to analyze the steps taken to overcome the problems arises.....

Therefore, planning is important so that all the problems can be solve effectively and efficiently..

Thus, never afraid to stand alone and be prepared to face the problems without fear.....><

Good Night everyone......><

Respect

My blog always use to express feeling and opinion.... so if there is nothing happen... i wont blog...... so now i wanna express something here as well.....

Ya im talking about the guy who commit suicide few days ago..... i really hope you guys show your respect to him.... pls la don't keep on talk bad about him..... he also didn't mean to do those action......

i really do respect to his courage and i salute for his brave action...... if i take 10 heart broken guys to the top of the building and ask them to jump down..... but i can really said no one is gonna dare to take the challenge.....

you guys never know what is the reason in behind of the scene?? no one is gonna know except him and his gf.....

So don't really judge him badly cause is all about ur opinion....... not the real matter..... although his action a bit stupid and irrelevant.... but this is his decision.... no one is gonna change his mind except God.... all about fate..... now is not the time to blame and point out the mistakes, but is time to show our respect to him..... he already pass away....... just let it be... he might be deserve all the sin that he have done.......

Scientist have do research before.... the moment when the person jump off from the building..... their mind is totally blank and and have a sense of regret..... but they cant save themselves even they feel regret because is too late...... so don't ever thought killing urself is the only way to solve the problem arises.... perhaps it is the wrong decision......

So im here really pray to the lately, Alviss Kong...... hope u will find a new life for urself and a new place for you to stay.... no more looking back and keep on going to find the way you deserve..... may God guide you for the better way.......................♥ ♥ ♥<RIP>♥ ♥ ♥

And people view my blog .... pls do me a favor..... pls do 1 minute silent pray for him so that he can walk out from his sin and find a new life for himself... thanks everyone..... Appreciate it...

Is time to say good night to everyone..... is time to rest loooooo......><

AGAIN

Today im quite nervous with the final exam result because until now also unable to log in to the website. Maybe have to wait for tomorrow morning. Another sleepless night for me...Haiz.... Im ready for anything bad happen. No matter what, just let it be and i will not give up for that.......

By the same time, i ........................... haiz......

Again missing YOU la.... omg... whats happening to me..........

Keep on thinking of YOU again and again......><.... arrrggghhhhhh.....

What kind of the feeling is this...... I know YOU know that.........><

Don't pretend la..... Is YOU lo........=)

MISSING SOMEONE

DID NOT UPDATE MY BLOG SINCE LONG TIME ALREADY........
TONIGHT I UNABLE TO SLEEP....... SO IS TIME TO UPDATE IT.......

I CANT SLEEP TONIGHT.... HAIZ..... I DON'T KNOW WHY.......

FEEL LIKE WAITING SOMEONE..........
FEEL LIKE SOMETHING HAVEN'T DONE.........
FEEL LIKE MISSING SOMEONE........
FEEL LIKE MANY THINGS STILL HAVEN'T TELL YOU..
FEEL LIKE NEED SOMEONE AT MY SIDE..........
FEEL LIKE NEED SOMEONE TO HUG......

HAIZ.... YA I STARTED TO BE EMO ALREADY......

YAYA IS YOU............. STARE WHAT LE..........YOU LAH!!!!! HAHAHA.....

I MISS YOU!!!!!.................


*SO IS TIME TO SLEEP..... WAIT YOU AT MY DREAMS LOOOOO.........><

NAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!! BITCH......... FOR YOU GEH............

My feeling like now very unsatisfied with the case happen today..........

shit you la bitch.........

I tell you in the polite way and give advise to you so that you can take note about it.....

but you dont care about it and talk like this:

"i know what am i doing. i din spam ppl for nothing. they are all my frens. if u dun feel like voting,juz dun vote. i don't mind"

All right bitch.........

If you dont wanna take my advise is fine... but if something really happen like what i said..... then you dont cry wo... bitch......

And one more thing loh..... your face look like shit and ugly like hell still wanna join for the MODEL contest... You better pissed off la.....

And your home dont have any mirror meh.... need me buy for you or not......

Look through yourself la bitch......... wake up la..... your face wont be the next star.......

Think for your parents la...... they also might be feel shame to you......... give you money to go study...... then you go enter the contest........ did u think for them bitch........

If you are the really star....... then at the very early stage the people already find you to be the star la..... need to wait until now meh...... think la...... your face also can be the star.... then i enter super junior already la.... bitch..........

Ya im talking you bitch..... no need mention the name la..... later my profile also get polluted...... your name are not deserve to be appear in my blog..... pissed offfff........

You know what.... I DONT GIVE A DAMN....... NAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

By Spencer D'Angelo.........

Attention: yup to all the spy of this bitch..... if you are too free to be be part of this...... or if you are soooo free wanna share this message to the bitch... then you may do so.... but im just wish you to have the throat cancer for the rest of your life....... and you can spam my profile as well and i will just wish thank you and wish you have the better die when you are on the road...... thanks.....

In our life......

We have to walk through only 1 single road chosen by ourself..........

But when the time we are walk to the front of the road,

There are different kind of flowers, animals and trees at the side of the road which attract your attention to stop your journey.........

U will never realize about it...... cause they are very attractive......

But once you are realize....... u are too late.........

The things around us represent something.....
1) road represent the path you are taking right now ( no matter you are study or working)

2) flowers represent the love matter that you are facing

3) trees represent your parents which waiting for you at home

4) animals represent your friends/ sisters and brothers which always support for you

So the lesson from the message:

1) Never stop your journey and keep on moving and never look back as our dreams and opportunity are in front....

2) Love is something we need it but we must try to reach the end of the road no matter what

3) Parents are important to us but sometimes of course we need to separate with them for a moment of time..... but they will understand our reason and for sure they will support us at behind....

4) Friends/ brothers/ sisters are the only person who can share our problems and give us the support...... so without them...... we cant continue for our dreams

Therefore a normal person will be struck in the middle of the road because of the attraction given by the flowers, trees and animals, but we must don't forget, the dreams and opportunity are still waiting for us in front.......

So we must keep on moving to the front until the ends...... and don't forget after u reach to the end' u can still walk back to the behind and find back those flowers, tress and animals that you left out......

YOU ARE THE BEST

This post is dedicated to one of my best friend.........

Never give up on what you can't get it........

Never give up on something that you love.........

Never give up on something that you want......

The action you show can tell out everything about you....... with

Your care.....

Your love......

Your sincerely.....

Your kindness......

Maybe she/he never appreciate anything that you done for her/him......

Maybe she/he never understand the greatest of love that you give to them.......

They make choices by choosing others but not you.......

Then is all right.......

Cause in future they might be regret because......

They choose the wrong choice by not choosing you......

And by the time, they will realize that........

YOU ARE THE BEST........................!!!!!!!! =)

by Spencer D'Angelo

I wish i have not done anything wrong in my teaching method........ cause just now my boss ask me to take over other subject to replace my current subject...... so he ask me to teach english and science for form 1 student replacing the bm subject for form 2 student.......

So im just wondering maybe is not my mistake in teaching cause if i really cant teach then the boss should ask me to leave....... not to give me another subject....... so i might just think that there is another experience bm teacher took my place cause maybe he or she will be more experience than me.....

So now im not going to think this is the negative situation and should look forward to experience the new subject.... maybe this is the way i can able to gain more experience...... i never give up something easily and i will look forward to bring back the victory........ so here im just wanna express my feeling towards the things that happen today....... never try before write about myself in the blog..... this might be the first time.... all about me... huh.....

And i really enjoy in teaching the student all the way...... and planning to be the lecturer in future... im not sure.... seems like the student nowadays is hard to be control...... i really feel the pressure and the tension created by the student..... if you treat them too good, they will climb up onto your head........ but if you treat them bad, they will going to report you.......

So i planning to treat them bad... hahaha....... cause they will never be able to climb up on my head...... today is the last day i teach for the form 2 student...... and next week will be the new class...... and today also is the worst environment they gave me in the class.... noisy until i vomit........... so i will swear by myself...... never never treat them good especially the upcoming new classes......

Im now praying for myself hope that everything will be fine in upcoming new classes and i will try my best to guide them well....... wish me all the luck....... GOD BLESS...........

Something That You Missed

If one dream should fall and break into a thousand pieces, never be afraid to pick one of those pieces up and begin again.