I have been missing from this place few months ago..... and i have come back again this time....... to share what i want to share......
Its Christmas today........ and i don't have much feeling to celebrate for it....... and i don't really know why....
My mind was full with sadness and sorrow.... thinking of the past and previous of my life........
From the year of 2010...... i have made a very tough decision for myself.... this decision has been keep on floating in my mind...."Am i making a RIGHT decision?" i asked myself.....
From the day on, i keep on telling myself.... i have made a good decision and i have to move on no matter what..... perhaps i was thinking this is just a fate and the challenge given by the God......
But most importantly, i have never regret what i have been decided and the solution i took...
In year 2011, there are so many things happening in surrounding and i have been adapted to it so far.... i have been missing some beloved friends and family that have been leave me alone...... and some who are still at my surrounding..... thanks for providing me such a wonderful moment full with happiness and joyfulness.... i really appreciate all of you......... thanks for given me the support, the guidance and lovely impact for my life.....
Life must be goes on right now.... sometimes is it a must to sacrifice something in your life... and i have been sacrifice my dreams and my ambitions....... i will never blame or hate anyone who look down on me, stab back me or even push me down....... as long as i'm still know how to stand up again and smile to you and said "thanks for not helping me"............ i really appreciate what i have right now...... although we need to be greedy sometimes as a human being..... what we wanna chase for our life is happiness but not money......
Throughout the past few years.... i have learned many things for myself...... from the people and from the nature....... i get to know their behaviour and what action should i take...... however.... im still weak in controlling my emotion and i think i should make it right on some other day in the future......
AND im feel very tired this year......especially this year....... i have too much burden on my shoulder.......i hope the God stop playing me soo much in the upcoming year of 2012......pls GOD is time to let me go .....im in pain and suffering.......=(
